Not Today
Death came for me in the cold dark night of the blood red moon while white crystals fell silently from the sky blanketing the earth in all her wisdom.
Cast your burdens upon my shoulders and rest, she said.
You have toiled so hard and your solace is well deserved.
The seductress tempted me with her familiar gaze while casting glimmers of loved ones and times gone by on the silvery walls of my soul.
She reminded me of the pain, stench, and darkness deeply lodged within my ailing body.
She cradled me in her soft sweet void drifting, comforted by the immense song of solitude increasingly far away from the laughter and luminosity of the life I once knew.
In the end, that was her fatal flaw.
The light within me shimmered, stirred and remembered the untimely for who she was.
Since that time days have grown increasingly brighter. My spirit soars and shines with a translucent brilliance, difficult to dismiss as coincidental.
Life thrives and persists in this sacred vessel from every pore and cell to the soupy marrow of my bones.
Every inch and every crevice of my being rejoices with infinite life, compassion, joy, forgiveness, gratitude, peace, patience, and mercy.
The light is not done working her way within me and I humbly yield to her alchemy and expanded purpose surrendering the wholeness of my story.
Living my days with purpose punctuated by a yearning to bring beauty, goodness and empathy to those who choose to come close.
For one day, death will return and then I shall be ready.
But that day is not today.
With love and gratitude,
MRx
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